when i'm upset

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

my life in a nutshell

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they turn your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my dreams with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed 

a great start to 2011!

Happy New Year Everyone!
for those of you that don't know (and hey, maybe even don't care), yesterday was the fourth Winter Classic: Sidney Crosby and the Pittsburgh Penguins vs Alexander Ovechkin and the Washington Capitals. The Winter Classic is an NHL regular season game that takes place--wait for it---OUTDOORS. This year the Winter Classic was in Heinz Field, Pittsburgh, and boy was it packed! 
The Classic was supposed to start at 1 pm yesterday however due to weather conditions (a.k.a rain), the game had to be postponed to 8pm. Now, for those of you who don't know, rain causes a huge problem for outdoor rinks because it not only slows the puck but also makes the puck bounce more because the ice becomes more bumpy from the drops that land on it. Although the conditions weren't favourable, I'm sure the players were more focused on the intense playoff-like game and, of course, the 65,000 fans screaming in the bleachers.
Although it may not seem so, both teams had equal incentive to win. For Washington, they had to beat Pittsburgh to regain their pride after a shootout loss, not to mention the fact that as of last night they were second in their division. Pittsbugh, like washington, needed those two points to stay first in their division, and first overall in their conference; and let's not forget the fact that the Pens had regained forward Jordan Staal. In summary: Washington needed to beat the Pens and the Pens needed those points to stay in first (and perhaps to have Jordan's first game back a victorious win)
Although both teams played hard and had many great chances, Washington came out on top with a 3-1 win. Yes, I'm dissapointed with the loss, but it was a fantastic game to watch and there's still half a season to go!

Go Pens Go!!

(INTERESTING FACT: Teams that have won the Winter Classic have gone on to lose in the Stanley Cup Final. See you in April, Ovi)

blast from the past!

it's gonna be a new year in a day! a lot of stuff has happened this year, but i think the one thing i'm most happy to have discovered (well, technically rediscovered) is hockey.
the olympics saved me! well it didn't really help me with my marks but it DID help me with my social life (y'know conversation topics...boys...etc)
the one man i have to thank for helping me rediscover my love for hockey is the one and only, Sidney Crosby. Okay, I know you all are rolling your eyes and calling me a puck bunny and etc., but give me a fucking break everyone! I get pestered all the time for only watching hockey because of the "hot hockey players". Like i said, and i REPEAT, I watch hockey for the game; i've always loved it since the day i was born until the day I die: THE ATTRACTIVENESS OF SOME PLAYERS ARE A MERE BONUS TO THE AMAZING SPORT.
i don't need to explain myself anymore to you readers!!!


anyways
since the HFTL blog seems to have been hacked into, resulting in her posts being deleted, I have decided to have 10 new Crosby photos to end 2010. enjoy, readers! i will write again in the new year!

is this uncomfortable for you?

below is an interview of my abnormal psychology professor who i didn't like until i watched this video.

she tells people she's in cognitive psychology. does Queen's have the best professors or what?

bad ass

even though i felt as if i was watching myself play NHL 11 during last night's Penguins vs. Stars game (Pens losing 5-2 to Dallas)
this totally made up for it:



so fucking hot

feeling hot hot hot

the process of determining whether to pursue a guy or not*:
is he good looking?
if yes, is he taken?
             if yes, your call
             if no, refer to 1.
if no, refer to b
1. does he play a sport?
if yes, refer to a
if no, refer to b
a. what sport?
if hockey, soccer, tennis, football, baseball, rugby, basketball: refer to c
if badminton, figure skating, curling: refer to b
b. is he muscular?
if yes refer to c
if no refer to d
c. is he sweating?
if yes, is he sweating because he finished a game or because of other uninteresting reasons?
        if yes, refer to e        
        if no, is he shirtless?
                   if yes, go get him, tiger
                   if no, refer to the no answer for e
if no, refer to e
d. is he really nice/smart/funny?
if yes, go get him, tiger
if no, does he drive an expensive car?
                  if yes, go get him tiger
                  if no, your call
e. did he win the game?
if yes, go get him, tiger
if no, refer to d.
***i'd like to point out that this post is just for humor-i don't actually go through this process***

maybe i'm a little crazy

so because i was harassed by my anonymous friend about the fact that i cut off Toews' head on the photo, i decided to make another post avec head to shut her up.
so here:

i swear i'm not crazy

I would like to apologize to all of you (well, mainly my friend who harassed me) about cutting off Jonathan Toews face. She seemed very offended and don't worry, i'm not as shallow as i may seem. Don't worry, I posted the photo avec head. As sexy as he is, i'm not into him. My heart only belongs to one guy.

okay that's a lie: two guys! BUT my heart belongs more to one than the other

 

Number 1: Sidney Crosby



Number 2: Patrick Kane



my friend, who unfortunately wants to remain anonymous, also came across this:



Ryan Kwanten from True Blood: he plays Jason Stackhouse

if this doesn't get you through your day, I honestly don't know what will.

have a good tuesday!!

my worst nightmare

as midterms were fast approaching the beginning of October, i knew i had to stop sitting on the couch and playing video games and start opening the dusty books on my desk. but as soon as i touched my abnormal textbook, i fell asleep. it was as if there was a spell on each book that would either put me to sleep or force me to distract myself. i could not read a sentence without wanting to go watch a penguins game, go on facebook, or talk to friends on skype i didn't even know i had. i had to resort to something else--i needed to break this spell.
then i remembered my friend, Joseph Stauffer. we met in first year, during final exams of the first term. I heard that he was the best--everyone went there to study. So i took a chance, tried it out myself--i can confidently say that i studied my ass of and it was the only reason i passed first year.

Joseph Stauffer, you bastard

so i went to see Stauffer. the inside felt so familiar, as if i was walking into my second home, my niche. i sat down, opened a book, and i didn't sleep! i wanted to know how Stauffer could break the spell, but instead of questioning, I studied. and studied. and studied. until i looked at my clock and noticed that it was 1:00 AM. what kind of person stays up that late? well, at the time i thought the studious, hardworking, crazy kind. since i wanted to do really well on my midterms, i decided to join this group of crazies. one night i would be studying until 1, the next 2, the next 3 AM, regardless of what time i had class the next morning. this was the best idea i ever had-until it hit me. a week later, after all my hard work, it hit me bad.

sleep deprivation

i had never experienced it this badly. i mean, i had heard about it, almost every university student had gone through it. i had hope to never experience it because let me tell you folks, it aint pretty.

for the past two weeks i've spent majority of my spendings on cappuccinos, i've had very dark circles under my eyes, and i've worn the same thing every day-jeans and a sweatshirt.

it was a nightmare--something I never want to experience again. on friday, october 29 i said good to my good ol' friend Stauffer. i told him we would have to go our separate ways until december, when final exams start. i'll miss him, but he couldn't give me what i needed most--sleep.

so what is the moral of my rediculous story? GET SLEEP DURING MIDTERMS BECAUSE IT WILL KILL YOU AND YOU WILL WRITE REALLY STUPID THINGS ON YOUR BLOG.

that is all

i missed this thing.

Long Time No Post

OH MY GOSH!
I feel terrible that I haven't been posting as recently as I did in the summer! I'm in the middle of midterms right now so I don't really have much time to update this thing!!
Stats and Orgo: 6; sleep: 1
I am so sleep deprived it isn't even funny.
Anyways back to my point
Since my last midterm is October 30th (yeah what fuckers decided to put my chem midterm on a Saturday?) so I probably won't be updating this until Sunday.
I PROMISE to come out with a SUPERDUPERFANTASTIC post!!!
much love everyone!! and again i'm sorry!! :( here's something that hopefully will make up for it:

Just look at those eyes....oh man

a win at home

PENS WON IN OVERTIME. not the win i WANTED (c'mon those two goals shouldn't have happened...plus letang SHOUD NOT have been kicked out!!!!!) but still a win at home, i suppose.
since they FINALLY won at home, i think I should share this beauty with all of you:

i'm really digging his sweater. oh, and his facial expression is just priceless.
well done, sid. well done.

more to come

em-bear-ass-ing

ugh.
it is so unfortunate that the Penguins have not won a single regulation home game. I'm hoping they get use to the Consol Centre (which, might I add, has an AMAZING PLAYER'S LOUNGE omfg) as soon as possible. because, my friends, I will not write a post for this blog until the Penguins win a game at home.

see you all on the 29th of october

Day 30

Sidney Crosby

Birthday: August 7, 1987 (Age 23)

Hometown: Cole Harbour, Nova Scotia, Canada

Height: 5 ft. 11 in.

Weight: 200 lb.

Position: Centre

Current Team: Pittsburgh Penguins

Hockey Stuff:

- 1st overall 2005

- captain of the Pens

- NHL All-Rookie Team (2005)

- NHL First All-Star Team (2006)

- Hart Memorial Trophy (2007)

- Lester P. Pearson Award (2007)

- Art Ross Trophy (2007)

- Rocket Richard Trophy (2010)

- Mark Messier Leadership Award (2007, 2010)

- ESPY Award: Best Player in the NHL (2007-2010)

- won the Stanley Cup (2009)

- represented Canada at the 2010 Vancouver Olympics

- assistant captain for Team Canada at the 2010 Vancouver Olympics

- won a gold medal at the 2010 Vancouver Olympics
- first rookie to record 100 points and 100 penalty minutes in a season

- youngest player to record 100 points in a season

- youngest player to record 200 career points

- youngest player to record 2 consecutive 100 point seasons

- youngest player voted to the starting lineup in an All-Star Game

- youngest Art Ross Trophy and Lester B. Pearson Award winner

- youngest player to be named to the First All-Star Team

- youngest full team captain

- youngest Player to Lead NHL Playoffs in scoring (20 years, 9 months, and 28 days)

- youngest captain to win the Stanley Cup (take that, Toews!)

TEN reasons why I love him:
1. Let's start off with he's (in mine AND Gretzky's opinion) the best NHL player since Mario Lemieux

2. His Nova Scotia accent is to die for (Vancoover?)

3. He was a Timbit!! (awwww)

4. He scored the goal that won Canada the gold medal in the Vancouver 2010 Olympics

5. He's HAWT: he has a smile that makes me melt (ohh those lips), beautiful brown eyes, nice thick brown hair *sigh*, and a body I cannot take my eyes off of

6. He loves kids!

7. He's very modest (don't beleive me? watch about 10 interviews of him and get back to me)

8. He's always trying to improve his game

9. His knob is "not huge but it's not small" (a reference to his interview with Cabbie)

10. He has the nicest ass in the NHL (that I can confirm)

I found you, Mr. New Booty

Day 29

Patrick Kane
Birthday: November 19, 1988 (Age 21)
Hometown: Buffalo, New York
Height: 5 ft. 10 in.
Weight: 175 lb.
Position: Right wing/Left wing
Current Team: Chicago Blackhawks
Hockey Stuff:
- 1st overall 2007
- represented the United States at the 2010 Vancouver Olympics
- won silver at the 2010 Vancouver Olympics
- NHL All-Rookie Team (2008)
- Calder Memorial Trophy (2008)
- NHL All-Star Game (2010)

- won the Stanley Cup (2010)
NINE reasons why I love him:

1. He grew a mullet during the playoffs last year (which, might I add, was reaaaaalllyy sexy) 
2. He's really gifted (if you know what I mean)

3. He's a cheap bastard:he assaulted a cab driver because he didn't have proper change to give back (the ride was $13.80 and Kane gave him $15.00)...he DID have a sexy mugshot, though (to the left)

4. His curly hair is soft enough (I would assume) to run your fingers through

5. The limo photo is hilarious. C'mon Kane, you can do better than THEM

6. He can't keep his mouthguard in his mouth for more than 10 seconds (anyone?)

7. He has great chemistry with Toews both on and off ice (even if, as mentioned in the Jonathan Toews post, their photos are awkward)

8. His goal that won the Blackhawks the Stanley Cup was through the five hole (just the way I like them ;))

9. He has boyish charm (sorry Toews, that odd but sexy serious business you got going on can't top that)




Day 28

The Sedin Twins: Henrik and Daniel Sedin

Birthday: September 26, 1980 (Age 30)

Hometown: Örnsköldsvik, Sweden

Height: Henrik- 6 ft. 2 in. Daniel- 6 ft. 1 in.

Weight: Both are 183 lb.
Position: Henrik- Centre, Daniel- LW
Current Team: Vancouver Canucks 
Hockey Stuff:

Henrik (right- in suit):

- 3rd overall 1999

- assistant captain of the Canucks

- represented Sweden in the 2006 Turin Olympics and 2010 Vancouver Olympics won a gold medal at the 2006 Turin Olympics

- Hart Memorial Trophy (2010)

- Art Ross Tropy (2010)
- First All-Star Team (2010)

- Sporting News Player of the Year (2010)

Daniel (left- in uniform):

- 2nd overall 1999

- NHL Second All-Star Team (2010)  

- represented Sweden in the 2006 Turin Olympics and 2010 Vancouver Olympics

- won a gold medal at the 2006 Turin Olympics

EIGHT reasons why I love them:

1. They were both drafted to the same team and play on the same line (Henrik is the playmaker and Daniel is the goal-scorer)

2. Their accents are so cuteeeeee

3. They are THE most adorable hockey brothers I've seen (and yes, their "adorable-ness" beats that of the Staal brothers (and we all thought that wasn't possible!))

4. They're one of the few gingers in the NHL (and one of four pairs of twins who have played in the NHL)

5. They're hilarious: have you seen them in their NHL promo? Check that out (let's just say I would have given them more than just a toonie ;))

6. They grow pretty manly beards (sure beats Crosby's 13-year-old dirty sanchez) 

7. They have amazing chemistry on ice!

8. They're Swedish twins. 'nuff said

Day 27

Chris Pronger
Birthday: October 10, 1974 (Age 35)

Hometown: Bryden, Ontario, Canada

Height: 6 ft. 6 in.
Weight: 220 lb.
Position: Defence
Current Team: Philadelphia Flyers
Past Teams: Hartford Whalers (1993), St. Louis Blues (1995), Edmonton Oilers (2005)

Hockey Stuff: 
- 2nd overall in 1993

- was captain of the St. Louis Blues (1997-2003)
- was captain of the Anaheim Ducks for the 2007-2008 season. Then he became assistant captain
- was an assistant captain on Team Canada at the 2010 Vancouver Olympics
- NHL All-Rookie Team – 1994
- Bud Light NHL Plus/Minus Award (1998, 2000)
- NHL All-Star Game (1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2004, 2008)
- James Norris Memorial Trophy (2000)
- Hart Trophy (MVP) (2000)
- NHL First All-Star Team (2000)
- NHL Second All-Star Team (1998, 2004, 2007)
- won the Stanley Cup with the Anaheim Ducks (2007)
-represented Canada in the 1998 Nagano Olympics, 2002 Salt Lake City Olympics, 2006 Turin Olympics, and 2010 Vancouver Olympics
- won a gold medal at the 2002 and 2006 Olympic

SEVEN reasons why I love him:

1. He's HUGE.

2. One of the two former Hartford Whalers still playing in the NHL (ghettoooo) 

3. He's from a town in Ontario that I never heard of until I did this post

4. He was arrested for drunk driving, involved in a barroom brawl, and is considered by some to be impatient and immature. Bad-ass

5. No team that has ever traded him away has qualified for the playoffs the following year that he was traded. Coincidence?

6. I could probably fit in between the gap in his teeth.

7. He's a total douche and everyone knows it.